It's funny how I can express the things I'm thinking better in writing than in speaking. But anywayyy, college is back in session and I'm already starting to experience a bit of social anxiety.
I honestly have not the slightest clue why.. Well.. Yeah I do know why. I just don't wanna write it. my problem is that I tend to over evaluate EVERY SITUATION EVER . Can u imagine how annoying that can get for my brain?
Like for real, I'm constantly thinking about thinking. And worrying about what others are thinking and worrying about. Who the heck does that ?! I'm not normal, I've come to realize that, but boy do I fake it well.
"Fake." The word I despise most and yet I can be an active version of it. not to say I'm the type to talk about someone the moment they turn around. That has never been me. But I do put on a facade, like play a role or whatever. But I'm working on it, tryna show people the real Courtney.
I must say I really enjoy having this blog. It's almost like I can come here and express a real version of me. Like the piece of me people don't see when I smile and say hey. To those who read it, I appreciate u more than anything. Because even thought you'll probably never say it to me .. You now know just a little bit more about me.
